I am worried...

Time is passing…

Time is moving fast…

I am 14, yet it feels like I am still a child.

One year feels like a month.

My parents are getting older.

Everything just feels out of place.

As if I haven’t found my purpose yet.

But I am only 14.

And I am having these worries.

While other kids are crying because no female wants to spend time with them.

It is weird.

It is almost as if I am sad and regretful.

But I cannot find why.

Why do I have these negative feelings?

I am worried.

Worried that time will screw me over.

Every fucking day I wake up, eat work, workout, sleep repeat.

It is like I am a slave stuck in a cycle of “Improvement”

I just need a break.

Or I’ll become mentally insane.

-Andrey